I wish I was pure
I wish I was healthy
Wish I listened to what God had to tell me
I wish I was smart
I wish I was wealthy
Wish I had more and more people to help me
Wish I was better at this
I always get an assist
But never am independent
I never resist
Whenever there is a tick
I wish I didn't give in
Doing 106
Wondering what I'm against
Debating if it gets better or if I'm just digging to dig
Maybe I'm digging to dig
Maybe I'm digging my grave
Maybe I've spoke about everything I thought I had to say
Thinking it's all been the same
Nevertheless I'm afraid
Wanna progress but not change
I just do not wanna change
Maybe I do wanna change
I don't like thinking this way
I wanna be what I ain't
Seldom I'm free of self hate
Seldom I'm free of the danger
All of the misery, all of the anger, all of the jealousy
All of the pain that comes from visiting
Every mistake I made as a little one
When in the grave I'll probably remember it
Though I've been saved, I still like to visit it
I hear the voices telling me get it today
Everything you ever wanted was fake
People just burning you cause you are frayed
Finding yourself when you're feeling astray is a beautiful thing
They never heard of you cause you are fake
Some things hurt more to play it safe
Make them want to hear what you will say
And keep up the pace or they'll look away
Never do sleep, that means you're week
Lack of it, though, is diminishing me
Terrified, I hope I never do peak
Not a limit to what I want to be
I am not you, I'm usually me
Sometimes, though, I feel I am deceived
Who is inside of me telling me I cannot be free, I'm holding the keys
I keep ticking I keep ticking, I can't focus in my head
I keep twitching I keep twitching, am I bogus or I'm dead
What's the difference, I'll diminish, I hope they just don't forget
Night owl, welcome to the quite fragile mind of sleepy head