Sleepy head again
Instead of getting sleep, he's taking medicine
Screen is causing all the problems and the pain his head is in
But is this the only place I feel at home, yes it is
This is why I push people away
We're all different
Tell me why I'm more different than every kid
Wallow in my pain, increasing that of which I'm resting in
But is this the only way that I can cope, yes it is
I'm the only reason I'm afraid
I don't wanna go to sleep
Cause then I'll wake up
The longer that I wait the more it'll suck
If I lay down, then I'll overthink
It's already morning and I haven't even blinked
I stay wide awake
And though I'm deprived
I want the aesthetic of red in my eyes
I walk in your reticle, living to die
I'm living in pain and feeling alive
But really I'm tired
I like to write what I feel though
I wanted more time with my pillow
When I get it don't like what I wish for
Because when I lay down I'm not sleepy no more
I'm so stubborn, I'm so forgetful
I'm so cluttered, head residential
Got no vacancy in my mental
Only for you, I'll make just a little
All these tiny exceptions add up
All the time we spend, thought I had ya
Guess I found myself in the valley
Tired of you now, got me drowsy, yeah
Sleepy head again
My sleep schedule's going crazy
All these voices echoing
I hate that when I'm sad I just let them in
But is it my fault I hold on way too tightly, yes it is
I wish that I wasn't who I am
I'm a schizo bomb
Everything annoying like the voices on the intercom
Thinking everything I ever did was wrong
But is it my fault when I stay up late I start thinking, huh
My whole life is slipping through my hands
And I hate it, hate it I don't want to wake up
Satan invading me, difficult to stay tough
Maybe a better me is a thing I made up
I'm escaping the bed, I'm a mess, Imma stand up
Read my Bible, check my outfit
What's my life goal, or have I found it
Heck if I know, I don't like you
Sorry I don't mean that, I like you
Plus I'm tired, and my eyes hurt
I have headaches, I keep hurting
Different wires, I'm so confused
Why's the name "boy" on my jersey
I want an xbox not a job
And I want friends but I'm not assertive
I want compliments, but not too much
Because expectations make me nervous
This is why I don't sleep
Lot of thoughts in my head
I like to have a lot of distractions so I can be entertained instead
Be entertained instead
I spend most my days wishing I was asleep
But I procrastinate when it comes to sleep
Cause I don't want to think