It's scary knowing I can't love right
Cling to voids that hide me from the daylight
A little bit of you fix a little bit of me
No need for promises, don't need a shocking leave
There's people like him who I wholly adore
He says such sweet things, he opens the door
He cradles my weaknesses, phobias unlearned
But all I think is you, it's you I deserve
He helps me and heals my heart down
But I still stand back for your rounds
Every night I fall asleep
Praying you don't haunt my dreams
And maybe if I was indifferent
I wouldn't wear my soul down, begging
Cause I don't really know how to say that
I don't love him
And maybe if you didn't break dishes
Cause I wasn't the girl you wanted
Then I wouldn't be damned inside my head
And I could love, and I could love him
(And I could love him, and I could love him, and I could love him)
I punish myself for having a heart
Envisioning the grand awaited depart
Can't wait to see what you take from me
And watch myself mourn all the memories
He helps me and heals my heart down
But I still stand back for your rounds
Every night I fall asleep
Praying you don't haunt my dreams
And maybe if I was indifferent
I wouldn't wear my soul down, begging
Cause I don't really know how to say that
I don't love him
And maybe if you didn't break dishes
Cause I wasn't the girl you wanted
Then I wouldn't be damned inside my head
And I could love, and I could love him
(And I could love him, and I could love him, and I could love him)