I'm sitting here crying cause I'm alive I don't know why I'm still in this country Hole in my heart but all the parts still work at night When worry floods me And I feel ashamed Because phantom fears are bore in And I'm trying to be brave Fallin asleep with books in my bed I dream in fear The last words you said when You packed up your things and left me for dead I hope you'll be back here again But now I feel ashamed Because what's the use in crying? When I'm trying to be great No you and me Just the sounds of my voice in the void of this house I look froze in the tree Staring me down until I'm fearless again