Have you ever dug deep into the trauma you faced as a kid
And seen how it creates what you basically is
How you fight, when you fuck, and you leave
How you love, how you hate all of what you perceive
Is all seen through the filter of fear
Shame, guilt, and despair
Palpable pain is felt in the air
It's still there from the belt and the chair
Try and squelch it to move forward to maybe build and repair
It's too horrid when two tomorrow's are frozen in time
With a mind trapped in a self loathing design
I try to shove it down
Leave it all closed up inside
See if you love me now
I can sell souls to the blind
Lost in the spiral of the mind like an addict
Can be mesmerized in the rhythm of the tragic dance
I guess I never had a chance
Now I'm looking back standing
At the bottom of an avalanche
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends
Thought I knew true truth, didn't know truth at all
That shit was super false, I was a shooting star
Who knew that you could fall
So far in the dirt again
To pull up my roots in awe
I had forgotten it all
Like I took Ruphenol
I had a game to win fuck it
I shoot the ball
Numbing the pain again
A bucket or hoop to fall
Is all it took to get me to another ooh and ah
I've been through withdrawal it becomes who you are
Ah object of affection
I came I conquered what gets your attention
Insane I'm bonkers my quest my ascension
These rhymes I wrote on the desk in detention
Ah troubled youth chugging juice with the gin
In my bubble goose tryna blackout black then
Smoking PCP when the summer come
Looking back wasn't just the cops I was running from huh
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends
So I'm a prisoner and I'm mind warped on a plane ride
With the kamikaze pilot we ain't on the same side
Living in a time warp I'm still where the pain died
Brain tied In the same chains that I'm hanged by
Everyday
I wake up the same with the strange vibe
Maybe I should stay inside watching paint dry
Even then I can't write with the same drive
That I had when I was getting high
Is that the truth? Or a lie? Yeah the war never ends
All my ruthless desires we are forever friends
So I shoot for the skies but it's more evident
Than it's ever been that there's something killing me within
I keep keeping on one foot in front
The other head up everywhere that I'm stepping now
But when you're fighting all your life can't trust nobody
Tell me when is it time to put the weapons down?
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends
We never know what tomorrow brings
Try to be prepared for when sorrow sings
The lord taketh and the lord gives
Though I'm still aching when the war ends