I'll think it's great I'll think I made it I'll add the paint Say "It's amazin'" Then grab the lighter Then start the fire Joyful joyful, watch it burn Joyful joyful, watch it burn I wish I'd go to hell Then I could know what's real Instead of constantly reshapin' all my words To pass agreements Cannot trust myself I don't deserve your help While I just sit here in fear My dear I'm so lost What am I running to? I think some money's due What would my mother do? What would my brother do? Hit like a heart attack Painted the window black I taste the bitter past I taste it (taste it, taste it, taste it, taste it) I think I'm broken But I don't focus This side is toneless I wonder what it was that Always tried to go with Ki-kind of broke it Reside in stone with My music playing for the decades After time is broken I-I'd have noticed I'd have noticed (Wish I'd go to hell) Then I could know what's real Instead of wasting all my thoughts On thoughts about some things I think about I'm goin' 'round Dance in a circle now Like there's no me to even see this world I'm always super stressed about What am I running to? I think some money's due What would my mother do? What would my brother do? Hit like a heart attack Painted the window black I taste the bitter past I taste it (taste it, taste it, taste it, taste it) (Taste it, taste it, taste it)