I used to lie awake at night and question what my purpose is
I never had my fingernails, I've always been a nervous kid
Unhappy and I'm sure of it
I'm never gonna change
I barely scratch the surface when I pace the halls to clear my thoughts away
I'm not okay
And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
I'm letting go
And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
It feels so far now
Holding on but losing my grip
I guess it's something I could learn to live with
♪
I'm hoping it resolves itself and I've been waiting patiently
I drink myself to sleep because I hate the pills my doctor gave me
I am just a mess
Submissive to the stress
My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head
Don't get too close to me
I'm about to go
I'm about to break
We're only seconds away
I'm not okay
And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
I'm letting go
And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
It feels so far now
Holding on but losing my grip
I guess it's something I could learn to live with
♪
I gotta keep it together
I am losing my way (my way)
I gotta try to get better
Before I lose what's left of me (what's left of me)
♪
I'm not okay
And I'm starting to learn it in the hardest ways
I've lost control of everything I ever had a hold of
I'm letting go
And I'm rid of the notion that I'll make it out
It feels so far now
Holding on but losing my grip
I guess it's something I could learn to live with
♪
My mind feels like it's on a loop, I panic from the pressure in my head