And I've been staying home A steady diet of no one And I'm still not sleeping well Been up searching for myself ♪ Yeah, the going it got tough I barely tried than I gave up I'll sit and wait until the next one comes along Without a doubt I'll fuck it up I run away when offered love A subconscious habit I picked up when I was young And impressionable ♪ And I've been medicating A daily dose of alcohol and nicotine Yeah, it helps to take the pain away This thread I've been hanging by's getting thinner everyday ♪ When I can't sleep I close my eyes I bide my time 'til my demise All I ever wanted was to die when I was young I'm turned around, I'm twisted up I've given in, I'm giving up Just throw my body in a potter's field and let me rot away