It just eats at my conscious But I know that it's nonsense Sometimes I look at life and wish that I could rewind it Man I start to get the picture like I fucking designed it Use to have a major passion for rapping But here lately It's been really hard for me to even want to go find it See Ima be honest I think I'm beyond it Even better under pressure Ima turn to a diamond Guarantee that we grinding Slowly we climbing 30 right around the corner Got me nervous with timing I been going through moods like seasons My heart cold like I put it in a freezer Everyone around me wondering the reason But mentally it's like I'm going through a grievance My own kin don't even wana see me Probably hit me next time I'm on the TV I got more than just some people that believe it And that's the shit that make me never wana leave it See I got homeboys closer than fam My own brother ands sisters don't know who I am It's the worlds out to get em And I'm part of the plan But there's a lot of shit that yal don't know that I understand I mean Why the fuck you put the blame on me I had to leave it all behind to put the pain on ease You only know me from what ya momma done put in a speech If we could come to a conclusion It would bring me some peace I mean I been raising one that ain't even mine Blood don't make a difference either You a man or you not I done been through a lot You gotta add to the plot If I ain't trending number one then that don't mean that I flopped Na the street life got you running circles You won't make it out the hood unless you leaving in hearses I let it all build up Until I put it in verses Fell in love with the game Cause shit that's what I worship