It's not that I still feel her but the emptiness remains But I found a way to fight against the current that caught me in her wake This isn't a lesson in heartbreak just in how it fades and what I'd give to once again be a stranger to your face As we pave the floor to cover the tracks the past is out of focus it's the force at my back Fuck I swear I never loved you at all I swear I never loved you at all The days I spent dreaming Daydreaming believing Give me just a moment of your time Let me follow the contours of your spine denial I stare into the blight and see you're the poison I'll show you I'll do this I'll make you believe Your life won't be a memory even to me All of the months that you kept me in fear Gaslighting blaming and faking your tears Now that I can walk across the ocean floor aided by the weight of the steps that carry me Now I'm so much better than I was before reaching for the hand that manifests destiny I lost whatever I thought love was but now I can see it starts with me The days I spent dreaming Daydreaming believing Give me just a moment of your time Let me follow the contours of your spine denial No I've held on long enough it's time to let you go and I'm so much better off