You were only like 13 when your mama lost her life
A bullet in your soul, and diamonds in your eyes
Teardrops and streaks of black, gold and white
A bright light to many, and ready to fight for your life
You lived with a cousin but he was high every day
He beat the shit outta people, you thought of running away
But you had nowhere to go, you had no choice but to stay
So every night before you cried yourself to sleep you would pray
You had a friend at school and she would stick by your side
And even though it was tough you always knew that she tried
And when she asked if you would be forever friends you replied
We're best friends until the motherfucking day that I die
There was a boy there who always teased the shit outta you
People said he must like you but you knew that wasn't true
So you would just laugh and brush away the things he would do
Until one day he disappeared right out of the blue
You were 17 when I met you, you'd been crying a lot
And when I asked if you were okay, you said you were not
So then I hugged you real tight, your face was red hot
And you soaked up my shoulder with your tears and forgot
And I could tell you were different, you had a smile like gold
You had a way to keep your head up, and stay warm in the cold
I loved to listen to your jokes and all the stories you told
And had a feeling we'd be friends too until we were old
I know that I wasn't easy, I could be difficult too
I know I caused a lot of trouble you were gettin' into
But you would always just smile and try to carry me through
At least you did for a while when I could recognize you
But then you started to change and all the light that you had
It started fading away and then your smile was sad
I saw it happen so fast, I saw it all go bad
And when I'd ask you about it I'd only make you mad
And now in the silence, maybe you'll find your place to hide
There is no explaining, remember it rained the day you died
And now in the silence, maybe you'll find your place to hide
There is no explaining, remember it rained the day you
And I remember this one night we sat in your car
Smoking a joint in the back seat and looking up at the stars
And then you said you were happy, I believed every word
But at the time I hadn't realized that your vision was blurred
And I don't know what happened, everything seemed alright
That one time we climbed up on the rocks at night
You had a funny way of telling everyone what you thought
Without a doubt in your mind but all your words in a knot
When you were 21, we started hangin' a lot
Watching movies in your room and smoking weed that you bought
You know I always looked up to you, for what I'm not sure
I guess I never really knew that you were so insecure
So when they found you that morning the whole world was grey
But I just couldn't believe it, you said you needed a break
And all you told me in the message was you're going away
But still I know in my heart you really wanted to stay
But you fucked up, god I hate your face
You got a lotta nerve coming here to fuck with fate
There were so many people here who'd always wait for you
Patience ate at you, but it's to late for you
And I'm not here to start a fuckin' debate with you
You said you couldn't stay but I wish I knew the truth
I don't understand, was it really that bad
Or were you just fucked up on every pill that you had
And now in the silence, maybe you'll find your place to hide
There is no explaining, remember it rained the day you died
And now in the silence, maybe you'll find your place to hide
There is no explaining, remember it rained the day you
And I'm sorry it was so bad if only I knew
Maybe something could have been done to help you through
I don't wanna sound mad cause I know it's alright
I just don't understand, it's a beautiful life
And I been gifted to know you, now I speak for the world
We've been lucky to have such a beautiful girl
Yeah I remember that smile, you were never that shy
Made me laugh so hard that I wanted to die
And it's still fucked up, but I can let it all go
I can get through the pain, just wanted you to know
That you've shown the whole world, the strength you've unfurled
More valuable in life than any diamonds or pearls
When this shit gets hard and we begin to untie
We can look for the light that exists in your eyes
And if there's anything I wish I could've done it's reply
To your text that you were leaving, wish that I had said goodbye