I was too young to understand
What you said never made any sense to me
Being caught in this mess
Two became one by force not reason
I waited for a better day
The darkness comes for me
This isn't who I am
I need to breathe again
Don't want to suffocate
I wore the same mask for years on end
Kept it to myself
Tired of letting this slip, how could you be so selfish
One act of selflessness could save this mess
You are nothing to me
Force my hand to suffocate the darkness
Weighed down to the deep of the world
Water, fills my lungs
Sink beyond the dark
Take it, take it to heart
Please tell me father
Can I save myself
Like you saved yourself from raising your daughter
I tried to push it forward
I tried to make it work
You never pulled any strings
For all the days that you missed
She never understood your ways
She was too young to understand your disgrace
Is this what you want
Is this the family you say that you love
Force my hand to suffocate the darkness
Weighed down to the deep of the world
Water, fills my lungs
Sink beyond the dark
Take it, take it to heart
Father, is this what you wanted
Is this what you meant by love
I will hold you to your name
For what you became to me
Monster
A path consumed by your hate
There is no light to guide your way
Would you ever rue the day
Watch how it all turn to grey
Those tears in my eyes
They speak of where we are and where we've been
I will hold you to your name
You've become what I fear the most
Monster, monster