I can't sleep
I'm too tired for this
I don't want to be broken in and whipped and trained to spend my days
In a place I hate for a measly wage
It's just too much pain to work today
I'll try to keep sane until I get paid
So I can feed myself another day
It's just not my way
I can't live this way
It's just not my way
I can't live this way
I met a guy who says I'm pretty, I could be a model if I tried
But when we got to talking about tops and bottoms he lied, he lied
Just please give me something to stop this ache
Just please give me something to fill this lake
Just please give me something my heart can take
Just please give me something fake
Maybe when I grow up I can paint it on my face
Another name that I despise, one to take my place
Then I'll be complete and I won't have to worry anymore
And I know I'm not the first to be so selfishly adored
I told him that I just can't say
Those words, "You're mine, you're mine"
But if we were to go our separate ways today, I'd cry, I'd cry
Just please let me know why I feel this way
Just please make me feel confident today
Just please understand that I can not stay
Just please make it go away
Maybe when I grow up I could be a better friend
I'll learn a lesson I'll despise
One to clear my head
When I turn to see
All of my worries will be gone
And I'll finally get some sense
Because I'll know that I was wrong
Maybe when I grow up
I'll see you standing there
Another place that I despise
Near all my fallen hair
When I go to sleep
You won't have to worry again
Because you'll know that I've done well
Or I've convinced myself I did