No boy should ever have to fight with his father to keep him from driving drunk Or watch his mother kick his father down as he reaches for the shotgun in his trunk He would have shot me right there if it wasn't for my mother's saving grace I never knew that my life could unravel at such a rapid pace No boy should ever have to plead with his father not to take his own life All the love I could give couldn't even penetrate through the drunken haze I was so mortified, I couldn't even cry Took it so hard, I just bottled it up Caused problems two years of counseling could not erase Problems that to this day I still can't face I'm all alone. I am on my fucking own No one to guide me down this road I roam All this pain I feel, you fuckers can't even see Can't even say I love you to my own family I don't allow myself to get close, so I'm not sad to see you go There is nothing that you can say I'll keep living my life sheltered this way