Well I think I went and did it again Made an enemy before we were friends Now I'm wondering what we could've been If it didn't come down to me Hair is messy and my liver's sore Cause I fill myself up just to spill on the floor Say I'm done and then I'll do it some more So it always comes down to me Everybody's looking at me Sometimes you gotta be a scum for love I like to think that I am good enough The stakes are high and the pressure's up Sometimes Didn't even wanna get you in bed I just wanted to be friends and maybe see where it led Now I'm feeling like I wish I was dead And the only one to blame is me When you told me you would come to my show I got a bit ecstatic but I didn't know I would only have one chance to blow And the only one to blame is me I just can't keep up with insecurity Sometimes you gotta be a scum for love I like to think that I am good enough I feel like shit, mistakes are adding up Sometimes Now I'm shooting at the bar, and I can see just where you are You're with him, so you'll never fucking notice me Serve me up another drink, I'm blacking out so I don't think About this shit, or it's gonna fucking eat at me And it will for the rest of eternity The worst thing is, I didn't get a chance I just wanted conversation, not to get in your pants The moments that led up to this Didn't make a fucking difference when I saw that kiss You feel so high, but yet so low You didn't even care enough to watch my show You never have, you never will The picture's perfect, I can see it still Sometimes you gotta be a scum for love I like to think that I am good enough Aw man fuck this shit, I'm out to get fucked up So goodbye