When was I alive? Could it be sleep is all I know? How could I have made mistakes? Is there something more for me to learn? When was I alive? Could it be sleep is all I know? How could I have made mistakes? Is there something more for me to learn? And will I ever make it back to you And will you still want me? Have you been waiting for the sound of my return? I'll wait for your calling... If I was ever an imperfect son Or a foolish boy, or a wretched child, I was only out looking for Jesus I was only becoming a Godly man! Pace the floor Wooden legs have never been so silent And the wind outside the window sounds like heaven, you're almost here Before I was made, I was close to perfection And since I became, I've gone the wrong direction. The lies I've told, the hearts I've stolen How could I pretend to love so long? My God, I'm a terrible mess today! My God, I'm becoming a monster!