This is me wanting to be better Wanting to be something I'm not Guess it is a bitter pill to swallow The perfect little hollow I used to live in is gone I've been telling you in writing How I feel I want to die I cannot feel a single thing The blood is pumping in my veins And just last week I saw myself break For the first time and it scared me I don't want to be like that But I can't help myself from feeling Like this baby I've got nothing to lose You can meet me at the park Buried under the moon Nothing but a shell I will leave you soon If I don't love myself What makes you think that I love you? ♪ The worst thing you can do is pick apart your mind You get a shit ton of confessions and a lot of wasted time ♪ I've been alone this whole time And even though I've got my mind I don't feel like I've lost a beat But there is nothing above my feet And I can make things with my hands But I always fail to understand What it is to be a man And answer questions 'cause I can Bees, the birds, the trees, the Earth The awful feeling of desertion I look at you and feel something But I drive it down because you'll leave When you are sick of talking to me There is nothing to resume By myself in an open room With plenty of thoughts and things to do But I myself And by myself And by myself And by myself I will