There was this kid I knew
I used to see him in my class with his swimming crew
He had it made from what it seemed
Always wearing finer things
He was born into the wealth
He was captain of the team, and I thought
Man he's got it made
Good God, good girl, making big plays
Then one night, when he was sitting in bed
He put a gun to his head, and pulled the triggers, he's dead
Now I'm thinking, keep me from success
If life gives me lemons, I'ma make 'em lemon zest
Cause every time I see another person get free
It's depression 'round the corner, with the people they see
All the people, who really try to make it
Always end up stuck in somebody's basement
Smoking getting wasted
Never finding placement
Never finding joy
Dying still complacent, It's very sad
Now I'm sitting back
Like what's the point of living driven
I ain't even mad
Every time I try to give it life ain't giving back
I think about bout my past
I wear it like a cast
I'm really bonafide, I'm never open-eyed
I always disappeared whenever the moments right
To never feel the love, and only feel the pain
To never see the sun, and only feel the rain
Now I'm not the same
I used to count it blessings
Now I'm down and stressing
Like is this really who I am
Is this the life I'm destined
To be the one who made it
To be the pride joy
To be the chosen one
To be the golden boy
Cause I ain't living promise
I don't want a life of glamor if I'm being honest
The way that I would take it
To pray that I would make it
Would make it even harder for evil tryna take it
I used to roll over In bed at night
Stare at my ceiling when these
Thoughts inside my head ain't right
Wondering, could there be a better thing
Will I give a wedding ring
Will I find myself again
Will, there be a better me, maybe not
But for now, I'm thinking present
Ain't nothing really pleasant
If twenty-twenty taught me anything it's to keep it reverent
Cause every day you live could be your last before your gone
People gonna cry but then the world is moving on
So give with persistence, live to make a difference
Do the extra mile, run the extra distance
Surround yourself with people who you know and who you love
Cause when you moving up you'll need help sent from up above, that's real