I'm not trying to make a hit It's just really pain and then it's gone It started with a sip That's how it all went wrong Back where it begins I'm not trying to take a hit It's just really pain and then it's gone I'm falling out again Tryin to RIP like say you won't Okay I'm giving off sad vibes I see that you mad vibes In love with music but scared of the fast life I just be that type And they gone act like Don't need no advice Then they fuck up and I have to be anti They can not act right Boy just leave me alone, woah If you be doing the most, no I can not fuck with you hoes That's an uncomfortable low I hope you hate me, I'm really just sayin Said you was leaving then why you is staying I wrote a book and you tearing the pages Then you gone cry bout how scary you made me Don't have to tell me I'm very amazing Build myself back up while carrying hatred Let that shit go now apparently weightless We going through stages it's just how you take it We growing and changing, yeah I let this take my life How'd I not see all the signs Now this shit caused side eyes Everyone thinking that it's my time, yeah yeah Now I can't sleep like Vyvanse Only in a dream found finance I was so sick of hiding, drowning in this silence There was no friends on Fridays Felt dead just like my linings All cause I got high and like, shit I'm not trying to take a hit It's just really pain and then it's gone I'm falling out again Tryin to RIP like say you won't And it took a minute to realize how it feel to be alive And it's no different except that I'm finished with this The beginning of my life Can feel like you flying It's funny cause that's where I started But now I'm providing instead of relying Sometimes it be just like signs What you put in you get out And they can not hate you for trying Didn't hate me for me, hated me for lying Loose ends cut, but I started ties And I fucked up, then I wondered why I felt nasty, yuh Today I'm in love Today I get dubs I feel like I already won, yeah If you feel like you want something More than you can want something It take sacrifice and never be free of charging Power it up like charger I remember falling out I still hit regardless But my dogs be calling out I can't change them days But I create my fate Grateful for the pains Rainbows in the rain Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Rainbows in the rain I'm not trying to take a hit It's just really pain and then it's gone I'm falling out again Tryin to RIP like say you won't