I don't wanna live anymore
Just wanna close my eyes
Here you go man take this pride
I don't give a damn about mine
I don't wanna live anymore
Just wanna close my eyes
Here you go man take this pride
I don't give a damn about mine
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't even think I wanna live anymore
I was tired of living even as a little boy
Now that I'm a man it hurts me just a little more
When the rain is coming down it always fucking pours (I don't wanna)
Put a front on my face just to get by
But in reality I'm dead on the inside
Nobody understand, how am I the good guy?
Are you hearing what I'm saying man I wanna die?
(I don't know) What I'm becoming feels like that I'm already under
When it's suddenly flooding there's nowhere to climb up from nothing
When I'm out of my mind I'm gunning, I'm running, I'm coming
When you're coming from nothing it doesn't even matter anyway
(I don't know) I'ma look you in the eyes
I ain't even gonna lie I'm not afraid to die
Honestly I wish that I could the brighter side
Reminiscing of the times
In this world it's hard to find, a little piece of mind
I don't wanna live anymore
Just wanna close my eyes
Here you go man take this pride
I don't give a damn about mine
I don't wanna live anymore
Just wanna close my eyes
Here you go man take this pride
I don't give a damn about mine
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't wanna live anymore
I remember when I couldn't live anymore
I remember this all when I was 24
Death will come for us all and it was at my door
Had me talking to my mom time to call the morgue
I was crying on my mom's shoulder, brought her to the floor
Let the floodgates run through my open sores
Let the floodgates drown in my open pores
Now I'm feeling bad I couldn't take it anymore
I was chillin' in my feelings in this cold dark room
I was contemplating suicide I'd rather go soon
Staring at a gloomy night where there was no moon
Contemplating should I put that thang to my dome
Am I'm just a little crazy? I don't have no chill
I don't really wanna do this man I'm tryna live
Got me caught up in my feelings tryna find what's real
Can anybody else relate to what I'm tryna feel?
When I really wanna leave and get up out of here
I don't really wanna do this I don't wanna deal
I know I shouldn't fascinate with death on the real
Steady pacing back and forth got my mind on trip
My desire to die, is what I fantasized
No need to lie, or to minimize
What's my demise, I realized
That I'm hurting you, but you'll be fine
To say that you'll be fine to this day makes me wonder
What was on my mind almost put me six feet under
The rain was coming down in the middle of the summer
Deafening the sound I couldn't even hear the thunder
Uh hm, life's hard and I ain't different
I just wanna speak to anybody who will listen
I really wanna talk to you 'cus you in my position
All of us are living we're just living as the victims
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know