Man I remember
Talking to my friends
That were going through depression
(I called the devil twice with no answer) sadness
Self-hatred, (I found my way to God with the answer) you name it
And it didn't really quite hit me until
Until I experienced my own depression
Everyday that I wake up, I'm thinking man why am I alive today?
Why does everyday gotta keep reminding me?
That waking up and living everyday is tiring to me
Tell me why I gotta keep on living?
I'm just tired of getting up and always fucking giving
I'm just tired of giving up I know that's contradicting
Going back and forth with the... my only issue
Somebody grab the tissue
I'm about to down a motherfucka
Then another and another and another and another and another
Woah, woah, hold on, I need some more
Not enough? Well I got another for you up on the shelf
Keep going 'til you're gone or when there's nothing left
Keep going man I'm tryna help you kill yourself
Ain't that what you asked for? I'm just trying to help
Ha, I know you feel it too you're closer to death, haha
I don't really see what's funny
I'd rather be alone and by myself that's how I run it
I'd rather everything be dark and never ever sunny
I'd rather everybody give me space that's how I'm coming
Fuck fake love man I'd rather would be lonely
Imagine being real in a room full of phonies
Everything is fake, make you wonder what you show me
Half these mothafuckas y'all can motherfucking blow me, fuck y'all
Hm hm
See a lot of people like to misinterpret somebody being depressed
It doesn't mean that I'm a loner
It doesn't mean that I don't wanna talk to anybody
It just means... you know what? Fuck it
This is a depressed mind take a look inside
Come on in, don't close your eyes
Don't be scared, no place to hide
This is only part one motherfucka surprise
Looking like the only way that I can ease my mind
Is to put you in my shoes and let you walk these miles
Is to put you in my mood and let your thoughts run wild
I'm a have you going crazy running plenty through the dead of night
Got you really thinking that you know me
Everything is not what it seems going under
Everything is not real if you ever wonder
Don't pop that pill you might wind up under, if you ever wondered
"Hey Cassius, kill yourself"
I really hope you're ready for the journey
I'm a take you on a path of a psychotic on a gurney
Better kill me, better burn me, give me headaches every morning
Better get outside my head if you can't help me don't concern me
I don't wanna wake up, I just wanna die
I don't wanna wake up, that's a goodbye
I don't wanna wake up, are you tryna hide?
That's the devil talking for me, no
Got the devil sitting laughing at me pissing me off
I got you motherfuckers in my ears not letting me talk
Why can't anybody hear me when I'm trying to talk?
Shut the fuck up I'm a swallow this pill and make it all stop