I've been trying to write you A series of poems, but nothing's changing I'll bottle my problems 'til I can't contain them They'll stay right inside of my own head And I just wanna know what it means To be myself again I've lost interest in the things That would help me just forget And I don't like the way I talk, I hate what's said I'd rather just shut up and eat this lead I can't deal with dread, I can't deal with stress I lie every single night awake in bed My mind is sinking into sorrow I can't see tomorrow Yesterday was hollow Eyes are feeling shallow I can't give a reason Why I should be breathing Wish for different seasons So I can feel decent ♪ Some nights, I lie in bed Trying to make sense of what I intend to be My mom says, "Get a job" But I can't hang on to a life that isn't for me But you and I see eye to eye As they keep moving forward We get along, sing the same song Someday, we'll make it out there