You began deep in my subconscious I let you grow self-confident So you crawled out under the surface Degradation took effect Now I yearn back to the original To my long lost innocence Forfeit: my dreams of normality The world without a sun, denied ♪ You hurt so bad, I cant stand myself Giving up has crossed my mind To write my last will and testament To write my last goodbyes Then drown me and abandon me Let the currents carry me home To my rightful place in the ocean Consoled by the simple fact that I died ♪ And then I wake up How? I envy the dead And their forever freedom How? I envy the dead And their non-confrontation ♪ When they die free How? I envy the dead And their inevitable end How? I envy the dead For their lack of progress!