July fourteenth All everybody do is lay We lay all day Even I lay, and I hate it 'cause I feel so unproductive The days, they goin' by fast too It's already been a week, that's really fast And we came across so many blessings And yet I still feel the same numbness I want to appreciate every moment and not Feel entitled to the things that people do for me Then it hits me Do more kind things So I can know what it feels like I feel mostly envy at times Special, unspecial, lazy, critical Entitled, lazy And unloved I'm constantly reminding myself why I am Just so I wasn't treated like I'm at home, I mean We freaking crossed an entire sea The most high goddess here safe There has to be a reason for that, right? It's all passing by, by It's all panning, been a week Yet I feel passing Numbness