Shown up, beat down, fallen through ground Looking up, out beyond my reach I'm not good enough I don't wanna be Excuses they blanket my mind They'll be the death of me before I die As long as I think I'll try I'll be alright BLIND to where I've been I see only what is theirs BLIND to where I am Why must I compare I'm speaking not saying anything Of substance - not used to describe My meaning Distrusting, I learn to believe I'm not good enough I want to be As long as I pretend to try I'll be alright BLIND to what I've done To who has paved the way BLIND to what they see And how will I repay Open up my eyes to see the way I have to be So fuck this shit that drags me down I've paid the price to crawl this far only to Slam into the wall of my own twisted mind I've got to do it anyway