Seeing myself standing here, naked and broken Again I feel shamed, but cannot stop myself Like a beaten dog I came back for more Do I need the pain this much to feel alive Words became useless, No need to speak no more. Stale remarks of my own state Turned to haunt my waking. So long have I fallen Fallen from disgrace Could I say that it Has been better than this That it used to be better Than it ever will be Or have I always thread Through this same I don't fear tomorrow It can't be any worse than today And all the days before When I hit the bottom... ...again How did I lose myself amidst all this pain All the hate kept fueling me on All the memories of pain and betray And I will come for more again