Where do I go from here?
The bleakness of my mind is the only view I have
Utter suffering and despair deeply hidden inside these walls
Staring back with nothing more than a simple glimpse of hatred
Isolation the only life I know
I have feelings I'm afraid to show
Walk the earth and pillage all life
Bones ache with sadness embedded in my very flesh
Red illusion and nowhere to go
Unable to empty as this end unravеls
I am
I am alone in this unrelenting world
Unablе to forgive myself for what I have done
Every night I lay awake in disappointment at the man that I have become
Liquid hell drips down your throat
You will be feeling nothing more
Bound by chains, my bones of the burning flame
Subjected to pain no one sees
Fused skin charred upon the throne of agony
Drained of life, I cannot bleed
Ice cold veins, I rip out my fucking throat
Abandoned in a sea of empty
Slowly mutating into what I hate
I'm crowned with dirt in a piss-covered world
Yo motherfuckers, this is Vulvodynia, And Hell Followed With 2021
No mercy, no prisoners, take this shit to the fucking streets
Impaled, my eyes crying blood for this
I'm coming undone, the poison spews from me
Injecting aversion in everything that I see
A well of skin scathed slaves I shall worship
Look down upon me and send me to Hell
The walls staring back with disappointment
Speaking in tongues my mentality absorbs
Nothing left untouched by this ominous kingdom
Solitude, I am the price
Virulent scorn fractionated in birth
Coursing through the rivers and veins of my mortal sin
Light illuminates once more, in finality
My soul wilted and pooled in a puddle of dirt and blood
Drying in an instant as I prove I'm not human
Delicate bones fracture in weight of this buried corruption
I am alone in this unrelenting world
Unable to forgive myself for what I have done
Every night I lay awake in disappointment at the man that I have become