I, I can't begin to explain
All the things that I lost because of playing this game
All the flowers that failed to bloom
The perpetual sorrow as reality comes into view
I turned this flame into a spark
My roar decays into a bark
The smoke, the drinks, the friends, the scum
I tried, I swear that I tried but I'm done, I'm done
Always a way to make you think it's okay
But then reality spits in your face
From the bottom I can see how they make it seem
But don't believe in all the bullshit in your magazines
Goodbye to days of grace
Welcome my grave disgrace
Another way just to capitalize on your dreams
This is not the way you wanted it to be
So much to say about the way it was
They took it all from us
So much to take, they took it all from us
When it's all been said and done
When it's all been said and done before
They'll suck you dry until you've lost it all
You don't mean a thing to them
And they will never break your fall
Everybody jockin' hard
When you're top dog
But when your chips are down
Where the fuck they all gone?
Integrity don't mean shit
In this industry
So lean on the few who true
And always in ourselves believe
Hate all you want it
Only adds to our determination
And all you doubting fucks
Will see exactly what were made of
When all is said and done
You never stood a chance
Against a world that didn't want your love
When you tried to tell yourself
That everything would work itself out
But you don't have that luck
Now that everyone is gone
You've come to realize
You function better alone
And with a lack of love
You've found a better
Understanding of the way this works
Amen to the things we loved
And the dying youth within all of us
So much to say the way it was
So much to take, they took from us, you repent
I'll take it from the top so you can understand
I think it's the boy in me understanding becoming a man
And let me say something no one held my hand
Now anxiety ridden inside, shit has hit the fan
My heart races from wake to sleep
Head slow, I barely got the stomach to eat
Got nowhere to run and retreat
Nerves got me on the edge of my seat
What the fuck happened to me?
Hatred for myself
Breeds hatred for everyone else