Family meant everything before my family was gone And I thought I could push through, but I could only stay so strong She was beautiful as ever, even screaming as she left But when she went she took the children and I haven't seen them since Innocent and perfect, they were everything I had But I don't deserve a family and I can't outrun my past So I stayed sober for a year and drank the other five away Because the whiskey feels like comfort and the bottle always stays When i'm drunk I don't feel anything which feels alot like peace It keeps my finger off the trigger but the steel between my teeth Barkeep the bottle, I'll drink to misery Deadbeat; forgotten, not the man that I used to be Why hope for tomorrow? I can drown myself today I was once a father. We were once a family No home, no reason to live and no hope I'm back to the poison that made her go Two days from now, six years ago, I can't forget Who cares if I make it home? Fifth of Jack for a lonely ride I never even saw the sign God, what have I done? I was dead before I took their lives They aren't breathing Young girl and her child son I couldn't save them But how could I run? Somebody's family, somebody's wife, somebody's child, I've ruined someone's life It's bad enough i've taken everything I had How could I kill and drive on past? (What a coward I am) I would give anything to put that bottle down I would give anything, for everything i've lost somehow I'm so sorry, I could never fix my mistakes I beg forgiveness now, I wouldn't expect acceptance I'm alive somehow. I would not blame them if they end it I've ruined lives and pushed everyone that I loved to the side I've been destroyed by my vices These addictions have prices I could never say enough Can't right all the wrong I've done I've left bodies in my wake