I'm sorry for my issues
I'm sorry we don't text
I'm sorry for my mental health
I'm so fucking upset
I know you told me that I'm not good enough
Saying all the dumb stuff, I fucked up
I told you I was fine, I guess that was a lie
But you really said you loved me
Your love was also a lie, feeling so dry
I wonder why issues multiply everyday
Something's wrong with my brain
Oh, I'm going insane
Everyday, everyday
Oh my God
It's like your goal is to make my life feel grey
Kinda wish that I stayed away
I guess I'm getting kinda lost in space
Seeing stars above my head feelings dazed
Another kinda day, feelings awful strange
But I know it might be the spell you put me under
I thought you were a girl
But you were a demon come to destroy my whole world
I know that you tried to kill me once, I witnessed times
Where you stabbed me with a knife
Where you brought me to a time
Where I was so unhappy, I thought that life was pointless
And I really thought maybe this time could be so much different
I was wrong and you left
'Cause I don't really know why
You looked at me and lied
I thought that God said that our stars align
But that was
Also a lie, feeling so dry
I wonder why issues multiply everyday
Something's wrong with my brain
Oh, I'm going insane
Everyday, everyday
Oh my God
It's like your goal is to make my life feel grey
Kinda wish that I stayed away
(Why didn't I stay away?)