Hate overthinking at night
So I put it in my music
And I got these drugs by my side
So Imma keep abusing
My past still haunt me
But what scare me the most be my future
Snorted a line my heart race so fast
I still wish I could go back
To the times my dad was alive
Up at night I send u phone texts
You got yo son here cryin
Driving down this road I know I'll crash
Fake ones I left behind
I got xanax for to balance the low
My loved ones died on me I still won't let go
Open Instagram
New haters
Mocking me because I'm Asian
Tell everybody I'm out of favors
Want you a feature u better pay me
This money made me crazy
These pussy rappers Caitlin
Jenner
Y'all be on sum hoe shit
Change y'all gender
Tryna make my dreams come true
Only my nightmares getting realer
My sister don't like me trappin
Shit our pops ain't here to pay her tuition
Put my pride inside my pockets
I don't even like to take no Trillers
I don't wanna serve no more
I don't wanna flip more fentanyl
Steady tryna win
Feel like I'm dying to live
My demons calling me
God I'm praying on my knees
I'm taking all these pills
That shit just help me feel better
And I'll still write my brothers letters
Hate overthinking at night
So I put it in my music
And I got these drugs by my side
So Imma keep abusing
My past still haunt me
But what scare me the most be my future
Snorted a line my heart race so fast
I still wish I could go back
To the times my dad was alive
Up at night I send u phone texts
You got yo son here cryin
Driving down this road I know I'll crash
Fake ones I left behind
I got xanax for to balance the low
My loved ones died on me I still won't let go
I got me a bitch to hold me down
Who always there to make me smile
But she don't understand my pain at all
She still don't know I risked it all
Slip up once it's five years
Dad died I wiped my tears
Swear this my last year being broke 2021 my year
Hate the fact I had to cry over a piece of paper
Tryna be so numb forget my past that's why I take drugs
Aborted all my kids whenever my condom had slipped up
4 leaf clover on my neck I had to get my luck up
I seen it all before me
Looked out the window its stormy
Even risked my life for the ones
Who turnt out wasn't homies
I started serving junkies then I ran up sum money
I'll save it up to go to America
I'm tryna make it out Korea
Hate overthinking at night
So I put it in my music
And I got these drugs by my side
So Imma keep abusing
My past still haunt me
But what scare me the most be my future
Snorted a line my heart race so fast
I still wish I could go back
To the times my dad was alive
Up at night I send u phone texts
You got yo son here cryin
Driving down this road I know I'll crash
Fake ones I left behind
I got xanax for to balance the low
My loved ones died on me I still won't let go
I still won't let go
I still won't let go
I still won't let go
I still can't let go