If I'd known it was all in vain I wouldn't have gotten up just to fall again ♪ How could I trust myself when I've never been right about anything and Always hanging by a thread Feeling so fucking inadequate What is real I can't tell the difference Between dreams and reality And my own thoughts and the voice I hear If the mind's an endless sea I'm about to drown in it I don't recognize the voice in my head Is it even me or is it somebody else? It's breathing down my neck Watching every move, every single step Is it guilt? Is it regret Or something else I cannot shake? If I had known it was all in vain I'd never bothered trying It would be so much easier To numb myself and live in ignorance Instead of drowning in self-contempt Watching myself decay ♪ I don't recognize the voice in my head Is it even me or is it somebody else? I keep telling myself that I've been here before Even though I know it is a whole new low