I'm just trying to pay an insurmountable debt Just trying to forget about my inevitable death Chris threw up in the diner, I was sick in the snow Got a self-destructive instinct constructive summer complex In the shadows of urban development I'll mark my footprints in wet cement Like the first man on some kind of temporary moon But I had to get out before I dove in Surrey Dive But I'm coming home tonight Can we hold on for a sec while I we cold sweat from my brow She said we might have met somewhere but that's all news to me now And hey look I achieved something Can we go back to bed? But I had to get out before I dove in Surrey Dive But I'm coming home tonight We used to be proud of each other We used to take care of each other I wanna make something without foundations built on bullshit and whatever The loudest person says cause it's never really right But the beating and the puffing up of chests Has beaten every argument I've had tonight Come on just punch me in the face so then at least you'll think you're right Maybe you'll leave our place Lose the war and win the fight and I'm Running scared from the house that I helped build So why don't you fuck off stop bringing hate into our lives Cause all we ever really wanted was to feel at home tonight