When you left - I was done I was broken clean in two With overflowing pockets and A well appointed empty home Was it all for nothing dear? Curse this wicked tongue of mine For the hurtful words that flowed And burned as only poison can In my mind I'm a wreck But on the surface I'm the typical Shell of spit and steel Built to win and scared to be alone When you left I wasn't there I was chasing a great white whale Of my own invention On the lash and taking on all comers Those who tread upon my path Those who dared to call me out Those who said I couldn't do a thing With the hand I was dealt All I saw was total black All I felt was pinpricks in my pride All I ever wanted was to win And never be alone When I lay down tonight with another nameless lover I'll think of you despite being in the arms of another This lesson I have learned will see me to my grave This burden is well earned I'm eternally its slave