I hardly don't remember it It's hidden in my mind It's hidden in some photographs It's been hidden for a while I was pushed down in the sofa I was pushed down on the floor My illness with it's claws around me Couldn't crawl to the door Don't look at me I'm not a freak, no victim Don't want no one to pity me Don't seen as weak They say I lived I survived But I died, yeah A long time ago They say before you die You feel the most alive Well, fuck that I'm here now They say I lived I survived But I died, yeah A long time ago They say before you die You feel the most alive Well, fuck that I'm here now I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die If you think that I lay here Cause I've given up Well, you couldn't be more wrong So shut the fuck up Try to break me down And fuck me up Just watch me Try to break me down And fuck me up Just watch me rise Watch me rise They say I lived I survived But I died, yeah A long time ago They say before you die You feel the most alive Well, fuck that I'm here now I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die Yeah, I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die I'm tougher, I'm stronger Only mellow and high I'm a beast, I'm a queen And I was not meant to die I'm tougher, (tougher) I'm stronger, (stronger) Only mellow (only mellow) And high (and high) I'm a beast, I'm a beast I'm a queen, I'm a queen And I was not (was not) Meant to (meant to) Die And I was not And I was not And I was not And I was not (was not) Meant to (meant to) Die