Give me a second to... breathe I'm sick of this feeling I mean it Why don't you see it? My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating Why don't you help me? My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving I'm here to stay Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate If I wanted the pain I would have stuck around another day Sick of being in between angry and sad it won't rotate To being happy that word is an overloaded misunderstood Life that I won't be having almost like I'm set a bit upset I give my all to someone then they turn around stab in the back Then drag me while the knife is sticking out I'm on the ledge And wonder why my trust when it's broken is not repaired Forgiveness, use to give it now it's harder to come across You could never mend the broken heart that I bring along You say I'll grow to be a monster that's how you see me so Why not live up to your expectations you grew me on Why don't you get that you raised me I learned all my habits from you You're confidently way beyond the point of change so point a finger I'm disappointed I filled the void with bitter choices I was exploited Petty talks For a pathetic cause No empathy for my thoughts Trying to get me involved My misery has a plot To never let me belong I pray to God that I'm wrong If not forever I'm lost Breathe I'm sick of this feeling I mean it Why don't you see it? My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating Why don't you help me? My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving I'm here to stay Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate I feel like what I give is not enough oh I think the worst against me so I might go Thank you for the invite but I'll say no Fight against my own thoughts till I hate both Me and them are floating on the same boat Gradually fills with water I drown hopes Learn to not care when I should be careful Standing there so still while my scares grow In between then and now is a different phase Look at that inner self loath that I get for free Why is it gripping so hard it never wants to leave I've got a database of reasons, not to be me You want honest? I'll gladly share what's on my mind For the shortest time, I walked a solid line Then suddenly liquified you want me to feel loved For you it doesn't apply? these feelings have been rough I'm not even gonna lie I'm talking to you straight No hiding behind the crying I'm sitting at home day in day out and I'm in pain I thought it would all change I'm sorry my skies grey But I've been up all week cause I struggle to Breathe I'm sick of this feeling I mean it Why don't you see it? My heart has been hurting so bad it feels like it's not beating Why don't you help me? My thoughts tell me I'm never leaving I'm here to stay Why is it every time I think I'm better I'm back to this place that I hate