No one knows what I've feeling It's like I run from my past, I could never get right When I'm happy, sad is one step closer Will this last for, more than normal? Yesterday I woke up thinking life was over Overwhelming rush on things I should've spoken Words I should have told you, right in the moment You take away the parts of me that build emotion I'm always angry most times hide it better Maybe I should let go, and I'll sleep a little What this means to you is not the same to me I need this like the air we breathe this topic it is sentimental And everydays a battle with myself I hate the sight of me I'm ashamed to tell hate Is growing as I grow but silently I'm full of insecurities and even though I try to be Better than I was but there's not getting away that easy Talking to myself again, it's bitter-sweet Haven't seen the outside or made contact for over a week It's getting worse and mentally exhausting eyes are feeling weak Habits I'm not proud of but this drink it gives me some relief You take and you take for the sake of your own worth Does our happiness mean nothing to you Why do I call, then hang up the minute I hear your voice It gives comfort and make me sad but not by choice I saw a picture of you lately, your aging well My heart was aching like someone had torn it out My problems are not yours and yours are far from mine There's so much disconnect a stranger over time What this does to us is numb so many sides The older that we get, I feel it's out of line What's been going on it's hard to understand it I want to move on past it but It's harder I think When you cannot forget what's happened Tell me now! Are you just done with us completely? I need to know I want an answer I'm wanting all the years back you took from us! Those tears weren't worth sadness Love was wasted on you, Like the love you took and buried was it something You had planned to shatter both our worlds so sudden I could never let go of this And now were grown you missed out on our life how could you!? I'll never be alright cause I'm so scared to lose you When we needed the most how come you never came I always ended up alone so young and lost you left me ruined! You take and you take for the sake of your own worth Does our happiness mean nothing to you