When I was young I hated drama
I never wanted to get caught up
I built these walls like I'm a martyr
It's just the way that I was brought up, yeah
Ain't even talking to my mama, yeah
'Cause I've been going through some trauma, yeah
I got this shit all on my conscience
I got this blood all on my collar
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
I'm alone in this city until the end
I know it's been two months, I need to call her
But I'm afraid of what she'll say so I don't bother
I know she crying and my sister tryna calm her
Sometimes I really wish I had a father
Now all this karma got me feeling six deep
I'm 26, I really need a six speed
Something that'll really fucking fix me
'Cause I been on my own since I was 16
My auntie tell me I should feel accomplished
But I'm so out of touch, I wanna call quits
And I need dramamine 'cause I been falling
Emotion sickness seeping in my stomach
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
I'm alone in this city until the end
I'm tryna find myself
I'm scared I'll let you down, yeah
It kept me up all night
I wanna make things right
I'm not broke but I'm feeling so damn spent
Think I'm missing a place to lay my head
Wish that we could go back when it all made sense
I'm alone in this city until the end
And if I ever have a daughter
She will always know her father
And if I ever have a son, yeah
I'ma teach him how to love and never falter