Just pretend
Wake up to the phone
It's blowing up they wanna know
If I'm fine, need time, offline
In a hurry gotta go
She says come back to bed and stay
I wanna but I'm running late again
Deadlines, headlines, showtime
Need more hours in the day
I lost my mind again
Constantly stressing over what's to come
And I can't help but wondering
What's pulling me back
I'm losing track
Doctor's appointment at ten
I'm sick of feeling dead
Locked inside my head
Every time I'm here alone
If I remain the same
I'll drive myself insane
Fearing I'll fail in the end
But I'd rather be erased than just pretend
Everybody thinks I'm ghost
Ain't even had the time to post for days
Missed texts, distressed, no rest
Always gotta do the most
So don't take it personal
I'm not ignoring you
I just need time to realign
Before my head explodes
I'm sick of feeling dead
Locked inside my head
Every time I'm here alone
If I remain the same
I'll drive myself insane
Fearing I'll fail in the end
But I'd rather be erased than just pretend
With every choice there's a risk
Everybody's telling me maybe you should see a therapist
So let me clue you in a bit
This is my life, no filter, you should just deal with it
Deal with it
I'm sick of feeling dead
Locked inside my head
Every time I feel alone
If I remain the same
I'll drive myself insane
Fearing I'll fail in the end
But I'd rather be erased than just pretend
Pretend
Pretend
If I remain the same
I'll drive myself insane
Fearing I'll fail in the end
But I'd rather be erased than just pretend
I'd rather be erased than just pretend