Waiting on the sofa
So long ago it's strange to think
We made out by that bar
Memories make me want to drink
Never thought about losing myself
When my friends said I talk like you
Over a year and heartbreaks later
I'm reading this, still I'm thinking
It was never on my list
To become like this
But this change can't be reversed, no
Everyone of us has a person like that
Irreplaceable, an ongoing curse
Won't deny it, I'm no fool
I would lie saying you
Made my year easy to bear
So I sip my beer wonder if it's true
Am I becoming you? But I'm not yet that cold, no
It's a fight just to keep my balance
Duality the hardest shit to manage
Try to understand it, walk away with more question
Read a quote that said the answer is in my face
I guess I'm blinded by my mistakes
I'm trying to stay focused on my grind but I'd be lying
If I said my mind don't get the best at times
So much pressure on my body hold me down
Looking at my surroundings, paying attention to them sounds
And the vibrations, regrets from the time wasted
Should've been building foundations, couldn't get out of my way
Brand new day, same old feelings
Feel my heart dropping temperatures as the energy switching up
I'll be damned if I ain't getting up
Ten toes down, order my steps from the most high
Still I got to be my own guide
On this walk I'm taking, some people call it life
Make them sacrifices just to get it right, one more time
It was never on my list
To become like this
But this change can't be reversed, no
Everyone of us has a person like that
Irreplaceable, an ongoing curse
Won't deny it, I'm no fool
I would lie saying you
Made my year easy to bear
So I sip my beer wonder if it's true
Am I becoming you? But I'm not yet that cold, no