Why do I seek
What I know will destroy
I chase only vices
With your hand around my throat
You carry razor blades
On the tip of your tongue
With a glass-eyed smile
I thought here id burn up
I tried my best to be something for you
But we both know im not enough
I see the way you stare at them
Like they're the one you really want
I got this fever down in hell when I was running searching for my soul
I met a devil down here, he placed a curse on me, and now you're all I want
Doesn't help that this devil mocks me in every way that I see fit to live
Doesn't help that I'm disgusted but myself and the person you've become
Thought burning my flesh would help me cope with the heat down here in this place
The longer I stayed here the more I got comfortable with the person I became
I could of used a friend back then but I guess I was blinded by your endless hate
The only one I have to blame is myself for the way that I just can't relate
I've become numb to the way you talk
Yeah numb, to myself you called it love
Yeah but this ain't that
Cus you're the reason I want to be numb
I feel discontent
I'm numb, but all this hate was made from love
But yea this ain't that so ill just run
Until I can be loved
Riv been hypnotized
By a pretty face
Red lips hide the tongue of a fucking snake
I ain't sleep in days
The mirror looking drained
Waking up, realize, that we fucking changed
Where the fuck did I go wrong, who the fuck am I
I ain't really recognize, that person in the mirror died
Used to skate around with homies now I chase a high
Rivi used to save me now I'm passing him the fucking wine
Chasing vices
Living dangerous
Think I fucking like it
Took a pillie
From a stranger
Man I'm rolling dices
Rivilin'
He on a run
I know I lost my guidance
What the fuck am I gun do, I'm spiraling I like it
Rivilin'
Is this worth what we losing
Spiraling
Feels so good but hurts the same
Rivilin
Is this worth what we losing
Spiraling
Feels so good but hurts the same
I've become numb to the way you talk
Yeah numb, to myself you called it love
Yeah but this ain't that
Cus you're the reason I want to be numb
I feel discontent,
Im numb, but all this hate was made from love
But yea this ain't that so ill just run
Until I can be loved