It's when you grow up in the streets it's never really mentioned
That best friends don't have you back, lost in suspension
Gravity never held my body,
Just a prevention to let my mind just always feel muddy
Over medicated on Ritalin to make me alive
Drowning out emotions when im stuck on SSRIs
Is this life yeah why do I live another day
I can't take it, into the stress yeah I will fade
Yeah cus I am the son who's a bastard, cower in anger
Chip on my shoulder but watch me devour
This fury inside of my chest
Where I fill up this void until I am left dead
But I must detest that I have the will
To build up a stage where emotions will spill
For I have no concern for money or fame
While sadness still wraps all his ropes round my name
I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind's just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go
Gone, I ain't lazy
Fuck what you thinking
Depression in my day gave me a beating
Drink Ima sleep
Gone on the street
I fight so hard just to not lose a piece
So don't fucking tell me
What I can handle
You ain't know my limit, bitch I need help yeah
SSRI's
Doctor I'm fine
Beta blockers in my mind mixed with wine
Fuck all these pillies they don't get me high
Hate em but take em so no one will find
Signs in my life, that I am not fine
Perfect to you but I'm trapped in my mind
I wake up so sad with no reason to cry
Chemical imbalance fuck with my mind
Keep up the fight
We will survive
I know the future has days that are kind
I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind's just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go
I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind's just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go