Watch the image of me move slow
Your angry voice always just makes me stow
The fear I held as a child deep inside
Until the skin starts to break and I crumble
Down, down, down in the undertow
Friends rise above me as I sink below
Into this hell that I made here all on my own
I'm sitting past rock bottom, contemplating suicide
Yeah, where's my soul
You said I'd never be anything, yeah, so why try?
Floating inside of a capsule 'til panic subsides
A lack of serotonin, so we take SSRIs
Medicated by someone else to keep my life in a line
I stay high, so I can just pretend that everything is fine
I still have memories of my father in the back of my mind
Decide to ruin a family name, so I can just pretend
That everything will be fine when the morning starts with the end
Pop a pill to relate
Can't connect, it's too late
Digging flesh, wanting more
Making the cracks in my core
Hells above, so below
You're tethered in my soul
In reverse, watch the lights
Fade back and forth 'til I'm gone
I fucked up, I can't change
Wait a sec, I'll explain
Slipping tongues in the rain
The best times I'll never gain
The forest always yearns
I hear it calling concern
Until I fade away
Maybe my life is in vain
I can tell from your eyes
See the hate deep inside
I'm too late, never mind
Feels like I can't get it right
Fool me once, fool me twice
I come back, kill the lights
Curtains up, show is done
I won't bring you back to life
I learned from every mistake
Trust is not something you break
And when I got too much on my plate
I just remember it's fate
Who knew how much it would take
When I got myself in the way
Watching these clouds turn to gray
I'm washing memories away
They told me you won't be nothing except a let down
I'll watch this world burn to ashes before I melt now
When they turned their backs, I was laughing with every step
I went from searching for what's right, now I'm taking everything left
Can't shake this feeling inside, one minute I close my eyes
Then it's right back to a life where I've got nowhere to hide
Try to pretend that I'm fine when I feel so paralysed
I feel your words in my spine with every day I'm alive
Now my backs to the wall, I feel nothing at all
And I wonder how I got here
All the pain from the fall
I feel nothing at all, I feel nothing at all
Pop a pill to relate
Can't connect, it's too late
Digging flesh, wanting more
Making the cracks in my core
Hells above, so below
You're tethered in my soul
In reverse, watch the lights
Fade back and forth 'til I'm gone
I fucked up, I can't change
Wait a sec, I'll explain
Slipping tongues in the rain
The best times I'll never gain
The forest always yearns
I hear it calling concern
Until I fade away
Maybe my life is in vain
Pop a pill to relate
Can't connect, it's too late
Digging flesh, wanting more
Making the cracks in my core
Hells above, so below
You're tethered in my soul
In reverse, watch the lights
Fade back and forth 'til I'm gone
I fucked up, I can't change
Wait a sec, I'll explain
Slipping tongues in the rain
The best times I'll never gain
The forest always yearns
I hear it calling concern
Until I fade away
Maybe my life is in vain