Life changes, he's not coming back again
I'm not him, so why should I have to pretend?
I'm not losing, I'm just falling down
I'm doing fine, I'm-, yeah, I'm gone
It's in stages, time's just a blur
I'm living in the background unheard
Is this what it's like to withdraw?
You're outside my house, crash through the door
It's outstanding, reprimanding, but you say it's all the same
When you play this game, it's up to you
Sitting on the rock in the south beach back then
Look me in the eyes, say it's not working
Let's end it, not mend it
Toxic behaviour takes hand and you just leave
Smile at me and say you're alright
Don't worry, I'm doing just fine
Drowning in alcohol, listen here take the toll
I'm just here growing old, fires low, running cold
Burning at both ends, losing sleep
I opened up, you just make me weak
No sleep, no end
Ups and downs, lose friends
You say that you have changed
I say that we're stuck on repeat
Yeah, yeah, ulcers building in my fucking mouth from the stress of this
I don't really understand, so I just wanna fucking quit
Spitting out blood on the daily, you made me
Into something I just can't forgive
Is it selfish to blame you for being suicidal?
I know it's fucking pathetic, but yeah, it's hard to swallow
The fact that you fucking gaslighted me
Until I didn't understand who I was
Most days I didn't wanna wake up, and sometimes I still don't
I was living on a pile of drugs, I wake up and I choke
On a mouthful of my fucking own vomit
It took me here just to realise that you fucking weren't worth this
Yeah, so fuck you and fuck your fake friends
Yeah, always talk behind our fucking backs
And you started to pretend that everything was fucking fine
But it wasn't, so I took my chances and I fucking left
Life changes, he's not coming back again
I'm not him, so why should I have to pretend?
I'm not losing, I'm just falling down
I'm doing fine, I'm-, yeah, I'm gone
It's in stages times just a blur
I'm living in the background unheard
Is this what it's like to withdraw?
You're outside my house, crash through the door
Life changes, he's not coming back again
I'm not him, so why should I have to pretend?
I'm not losing, I'm just falling down
I'm doing fine, I'm-, yeah, I'm gone
It's in stages times just a blur
I'm living in the background unheard
Is this what it's like to withdraw?
You're outside my house, crash through the door