I'm having some trouble Beginning to wonder If I've been becoming someone Or the person that I want to be (Is this it for me Is this all I'll be All I've been being) It started that summer Kept bubbling under One way or another I just had to learn to Make everything freeze (Did everything cease Can anyone see Or am I just seizing) I can't duck & cover Or leave like my brother Don't think that my mother Would ever recover Should I rest in peace (A terrible thing To bare all the wings Would tear her to pieces) Cause no one's more careful Or frozen in fear Than the people aware of What it takes to cancel out Core memories (Is anything free Can anyone speak Some sense or the meaning) I guess we've had some luck Just not nearly enough To heal all of the cuts Carry all of that stuff To a place we call safe (Can't handle the weight Believe all the fake That feeling is fleeting) It's so hard to care Then just not give a fuck All the sudden give up Or move forward and trust Everything is okay (I don't feel okay I won't feel okay As long as I'm breathing) No your problems are not mine I know that it's not fine I try to get offline But strangers and stop signs Are blocking the way (I don't want to stay I don't want to stay & I can't escape it)