I woke up to a missed call from you At 3 am And I hate the way my heart skipped a beat Even when I wrote down a list of reasons I Should let you go It's not that simple though And it's not even fun no more I cling to ideas I had once To feeling you gave me before These butterflies became bees I'm a swell of anxiety But for reasons beyond reason I just want you But you rarely think of me at all I'm just an afterthought It's the same old pattern Again and again I won't hear from you for a couple weeks Then all of a sudden You'll spark my hope up like a match Just to blow it up And say you're messed up Well, so I am now And it's not even fun no more I cling to ideas I had once To feeling you gave me before These butterflies became bees I'm a swell of anxiety But for reasons beyond reason I just want you But you rarely think of me at all I'm just an afterthought What about that bracelet with your initials on it? And the trip to Paris you said you're planning? Well, all my friends think I lost my mind I can't disagree So don't prove them right And it's not even fun no more I cling to ideas I had once To feeling you gave me before These butterflies became bees I'm a swell of anxiety But for reasons beyond reason I just want you But you rarely think of me at all I'm just an afterthought