I dream a lot about dyin'
But I know that I'm not even tryin'
To make a better life
Feel like I'm paralyzed
Another day in bed
Another sleepless night
Maybe I was never meant for this
Maybe I was just a stupid kid
But I never thought it'd come to this
Contemplating if I'm even gonna be missed
How did I let it get this far?
I wish that I had seen it coming from the start
Now I'm longing to be where you are
I'll make another wish upon a shooting star
Wish that I could stop feeling so low down
Wish that I could make a name outside my hometown
Feel like I was meant for more than what I know now
All I know is that I got no time to slow down
I'm so far
From where I want to be
No time to celebrate
'Cause I know that's not what I need
As the days go by
I'm dwelling on defeat
No time to celebrate
Until I find what brings me peace
Have you ever felt the weight of the world
Pressing down on your shoulders?
I'm just getting older
The longer it takes to realize what I'm looking for
Eats at the sanity left in my mind
Yeah so everyone's a has-been
They all try but ain't nobody make it happen
Don't wanna be another passerby
But surrounded by failures
By now you'd think I'd learn my lesson
Left my phone and my keys back in 2019
Lockdown, I'm writing thoughts
Don't be hittin' up me
Fuck a shooting star, ain't got no time for wishin'
2020 vision bitch
You know I'm gunnin' for my mission, ay
I'm so far
From where I want to be
No time to celebrate
'Cause I know that's not what I need
As the days go by
I'm dwelling on defeat
No time to celebrate
Until I find what brings me peace