Traumatized in the mind I been hurtin'
On my knees praying but it just ain't workin'
Seeking help really tryna find my purpose
At the end wonder if it's all worth it
Is it worth it
Told them demons I can't go
I can't go with you
I had to tell the devil no
Get away from me
I hear them knocking at the door
Take 'em on with no retreat
I told 'em I ain't coming home
Nah you ain't coming home with me
Demons all in my head
No way I'm lettin' 'em win
They bringing up my regrets
Tryna get me to quit
But every night I been praying hard and working even harder
Memorizing plays tryna be a starter
From my blueprints no Shawn Carter
I do it big but let's do it larger
Yeah
Just plottin' out these steps
They tryna get inside my end zone time intercept
Think they got it in the bag
Watch 'em finish last
Me myself and I
That's my biggest threat
Finding ways to stay consistent
Far from average been tryna make a difference
This is real life nah it ain't a scrimmage
They still tryna count me out nah wait a minute, nah wait a minute
Been clockin' OT
Lost touch wit' my homies
What defines me is the work that they don't see
There's been nights where I can't afford any groceries
And rent here in Hollywood trust me it's not cheap
But I ain't complaining
This what I signed up for
And all of the struggles it just made me tougher
No more interruptions
My mission here's urgent
Been saying it's my time for years
Only this time I'm certain
Traumatized in the mind I been hurtin'
On my knees praying but it just ain't workin'
Seeking help really tryna find my purpose
At the end wonder if it's all worth it
Is it worth it
Told them demons I can't go
I can't go with you
I had to tell the devil no
Get away from me
I hear them knocking at the door
Take 'em on with no retreat
I told 'em I ain't coming home
Nah you ain't coming home with me