I saw it all Happened on the golden sheets In the morning You were asleep Hazy in your golden days There was a child Moving on her mother's breast Breathing only Dust in the light But you know it's awfully hard To dream I was a knight In my mother's arms Black as mourning Wearing the lights Glowing so my sister Could see I felt it all But you know it's awfully hard To talk about it Try to recall The girls when I was seventeen-- A dream Know this can't be right But it's awfully hard to fight When it's going quickly and it's like We're half asleep There's no rosy almost days behind These painted lady eyes Let it go and all that they imply Get over me I was afraid When I left my home And my mother Sadness, my friend She used to play for me And sing Know this can't be right But it's awfully hard to fight When it's going quickly and it's like We're half asleep There's no rosy almost days behind These painted lady eyes Let it go and all that they imply Get over me It's hard to talk about When inside you're freaking out When it's going quickly and you doubt You're anything But it's what we have instead of God What we have instead of God What we have instead of God We're anything But it's what we have instead of God What we have instead of God What we have instead of God We're anything What we have instead of God Like the moment after love When we know we finally kill the buzz So we can sleep And we can finally let it lie While the days keep passing by Carried on the little deaths we die Then we can sleep Where have you been? Wish I could talk to you I've been dreaming I don't wanna die Lying on the palest sheets In the morning I felt it all But you know it's awfully hard I don't wanna die Lying in my mother's bed In the morning