You interpret the things around you Through the pain that other people gave you You gotta learn that early or it's gonna be hard Sometimes I wish I could just shut off So I didn't have to make your life suck The road to depression is paved with good intentions But it's not enough to be exposed and disposed of Neglect is not a synonym for tough love I want to smother every bit of negativity I hold What would be left and would it be worth keeping at all? I had lost my will to live Which made me lose my will to give Which put me in a place where I could no longer complain That I wasn't getting enough That I wasn't getting enough I wasn't getting enough As fate would have it Being ashamed for a mistaken face Is a mistake I'll never make again Talk about justice and expect someone to take the fall, real and true But we're crushed when they never really do You tell me all the reasons you hate me And it feels like you're listing off The symptoms of a borderline personality And I know I am not tethered To all the behaviors or the thoughts I know one day I could rise above it all But for now my illness makes people think I really suck And I guess for a couple more years I need to suck it up Need to suck it up Need to suck it up Need to suck it up Need to suck it up